Bend it...

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 17:57:58 GMT

ok i gotta say this has been.... 1 fucking kickass weekend... to the max!!!!!! lets start with friday... we go out and meet terry and fucking dean from fubar... they sign some stuff and we talk to them for a little while enjoying their little standup show and readings from their new book... it was amazings... towards the end of that we get a phone call from john who tells us that his freind amy is on the way and wants someone to hang out with so shes coming to see us...

yes i know a weird phone call... i mean who invites a stranger to hang out with some people that shes never met... oh well she was pretty fun and from the fubar evening we went to the cd release party of a band called the motherfuckers...

they where sold out of shirts much to junes dispair... the bands where alrite... not really my style but it was a fun time all the same... and the motherfuckers lead singer was one funny bastard... the bassist broke a string on his bass and the dialogue to follow was something like this... and note it was all done over the microphone...

bassist: crap my string broke
lead: isnt that an important string
bassist: nah i can go without it, see listen (crappy bass solo to follow missing numerous keys)
lead: im not an expert or n e thing but im pretty sure u need that string
bassist: i need a beer
lead: ill get u a fucking beer wut kind do u want???
lead: wait!!! do we even have n e thing left on our tab??
bar tender: yes u have 1 beer left
bassist: i call it
lead: wut kind of fucking beer do u want??

it kinda looses its effect when u wherent there... but trust me it was so fuckign funny... ask june... she will verify that it was extremely humerous... following that they explained that this album is 4 years early... thats rite this band has mastered the power of time travel... man those guys had the skills...

amy's birthday was at midnite that night... so the bartender and everyone was buying her numerous drinks... and she was extremely fucking smashed... she said numerous entertaining drunken things... my favorite was when she was certain without a shadow of a doubt... that june hated her... dispite all that we could say to convince her that that was not the case at all was simply replied with the following comment: no no no... i know she hates me... im so sorry...

following this party we took amy home... and no we didnt just dump her off on the side of the road somewhere to take a cab... sorry that last one was an inside joke... i got home soon after and went to sleep... then came saturday...

basically in return for driving amy home she insisted that we go to her birthday party that night... so we went... we were the first people to arrive and also the first to leave... i really enjoyed myself... not so much cause of the party but i met this girl there named tara... she and i actually had a lot in common so i spent most of the night just chatting with her... jennie didnt really have much fun just cause it wasnt really her type of crowd and she just cant oopen up to people and talk with them... june i dont think had a good time either... which is too bad... cause i felt kinda guilty that we go all the way out and im the only one that really enjoyed myself...

after the party june went home and me and jennie went to my house and we watched... shaun of the dead... hellz ya... it was just as good as i remember it from the theaters... i think i will have to buy it boxing day... but im not sure yet... ive seen it twice and latly i have been very careful about dvd's i buy... just cause i wanna keep my collection down to the best of the best... meh ill figure it out soon...

sunday night i went with suzie to go see lemony snicketts movie... and fist off... jude law is the shit in that movie... i know how everyone raves about how good jim carrey was and yadda yadda yadda... but jude laws performance was so amazingly well done and he gets no credit for it... but still the movie was pretty well done... i enjoyed it... i am curious as to if they are gonna turn it into a franchise like harry potter... cause it has a similar ending... u know the classic one... its over and u beat one bad guy but almost none of the questions that are brought up are answered... well we shall see...

and that was my weekend... now i sit here watching american justice while eating my bacon and eggs... ill talk to all u mooks later... just figured i would ramble about how much fun i had this weekend... and im really luking foreward to tuesday and wedsneday... those of u that are coming u know wuts up... its gonna kickass... and here we go again...

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 07:45:12 GMT

some fucking morons in this house... my sisters b-day... and lets recount... her b/f gets fucking sick and thorws up all over everyhting... wut a cunt... and i have to drive all the male drunkards home... wut fucking morons... sorry i gotta play the dd to some 17 year old dumbasses... talk to ya latta

god.... or not???

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 07:27:55 GMT

how goes shit everyone??? i sit here after a very fun night of video gaming and ass kicking of the resident evil variety... BOOOOYAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! i get home and now i find out that i have to make an xmas list for my aunt... ugh... i dont know why but i hate giving lists... its way to easy... i think u should hav eto sweat and bleed to find the rite gift... or not give one at all... it just make sit that much more personal... a list is like a copout... sure u get what u want but u dont neccessarily get what that person wouuld have got u in the first place... oh well though its a free gift who the fuck am i to complain... so far i got my gifts for: suzie, june, jennie, and my mom all setup... now i jsut need the moolah... blah why is it all about the benjamins... grr.... i just wanna knock up trump for like 50 mill and just live in a shack somewhere with all my basic needs taken care of... like one of those crusty bums on the streets thats actually a multi milionaire who discouvered that money causes more problems than it solves... ill take the problems n e day.... dammit why cant i be rich... oh well... i ramble on... i tired... i sleep now... nite nite everyone... dont let the bed zombies bite...

sitin here...

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 10:20:35 GMT

its 3am friday... and im bored... so bored that im jsut sitin here watching the 2am movie on the W networks... so far theres allot of shooting and asome poor black guys chained to a wall played by samuel jackson... aka the baddest motherfucker on the planet... damn hes cool... only guy that can be in the incredibles in an ice capades outfit and still kick some ass despite lukin kinda fagmoey... thats rite i said fagmoey... well that movie got boring fast... wut now... i think ill sit here and give a blow by blow of the battle of channell surfing... here goes... ooh the info mercal just got knocked down by channell 34's post election coverage... fucking bush... why did u give up karey... u totallly coulda kicked his ass in clebrity boxing... tonite i beat jak and daxter 3... it rocked... kool ending to... omg... june when/if u read this we must immediatly watch the clerks 10 y aniversary q/a... theres this amazing question that this fucking dumbass askes kevin smith about the gum in the locks... and randall almost kicks the shit out of this guy that keeps kalling him gay... on top of that kevin smith admits that hes working on a new season of the clerks cartoon.... FUCKING A!!!!!!!!!!!! well ill leave u guys with that cause a kool infomercial about how i to can own this amazing roticery for only 10 easy payments of 7.99.... ooh what a steal...

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 09:52:04 GMT

ok... so... im back... word up... no more fucking around... i am gonna be posting a helluva lot now... no more screwing around...

WOULD U LIKE TO MAKING FUCK BERZERKER!!!!!

yep... and just to follow that up....

I am prepared to destroy 24 cars today....
RON!!!!

so ya... talk to me guys... how goes it???

shitballzy

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 05:04:18 GMT

well it has indeed been a shitballzy long time since i did n e thing here... why is that?? no one reads it... no one cares... oh well... i figured i would say something... see who the hellz alive out here... oh well.. update on my life time...

suzie and me are doing fucking great... i feel sad though cause shes feeling pretty shitty rite now... she thinks she may have broncititus... but hopeuflly she will be feeling better pretty quick cause me and jennie and lindzy got some good ideas for her birthday but shes gotta be healthy for em...

work... im a happily unemployed bum... oh well tomorrow i go job hunting to find something to bring in the bacon...

i mite get a fucking brand new car... like a wickedly badass car... 2005 wave... nice and small yet still the shit... i cant wait... hopefully by october ill have it... it would be so swanktastic...

umm... im bored allot of the time... i plan on going to see chad vangallen on thursday... with john and june... it will be pretty cool.. if n e one reads this and cares u are more than welcome to come... its at the broken city social club down on 11th ave sw on near 6th street... its pretty easy to find...

umm thats about it... so reply if u guys are still alive...

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 22:37:31 GMT

so... how are we all today... in a few days i finally leave this enforced exile known as nitecrew... finally i can try to get back to all those i havnt seen in months... well... just writing here to say BOOO! im back soon... and im probly doin a back to daycrew party pretty quick here... if u wanna come gimme a ring.... and if ur redin this but just dont give a shit about me... then go to hell...

movie time...

Sun, 30 May 2004 01:31:24 GMT

so i did some searching and i found out that there are some kool sequels/movies coming out... these are my ones i wanna see:
blade: trinity (i just cant get nuf of these movies... and jessica albas in this one... kickass good times)
cronicles of riddick (dispite my utter hatred of vin diesel... this one looks good...)
alien vs. predator (if its as good as it luks... then wicked coolness)
bloodrayne (ok milla jovovich is in contract negotiations for this one... so.... KICKASS!!!)
resident evil: apocalypse (more milla jovovich... wut can i say... i love her...)
resident evil: afterlife (more milla... i see a pattern here...)
Devil may cry (oh ya... kick some ass dante... and keep that sponsorship from deisel jeans)
Dragon Ball Z (they have started filming 4 films simontanously to create a "saga"... if they do it right... that will kickass)
Hellboy 2 (GUIRMO COMES BACK.... SO DOES PERLMAN... KICKASS TIME!!! http://filmforce.ign.com/articles/515/515970p1.html)
LXG 2 (hey if they do it right... it will kickass)
The Crow: Lazarus (done in tribute to brandon lee... god rest his soul...)
Tron 2.0 (hey if they do it right... i think it will be good)
Underworld 2 (they left it on a cliffhanger... i wanna find out wut happens)
X-files 2 (oh ya... mulder is back...)

these are the ones that NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN MADE!!!!!
Akira (hollywood live action remake... HOW THE FUCK CAN U IMPROVE UPON GREATNESS DAMMIT... STOP NOW!!!!)
austin powers 4 (just stop already... we get the point... so ya got bad teeth...)
blair witch 3 (oh... i am so scared rite now...)
blood the last vampire (again... how can u do a remake of a fucking classic)
Bridget Jones: the edge of reason (ok... why??? for the love of god why??)
Daredevil 2 (wow... how can u make crap... crappier??? i know... a sequel... hey ben... ur career sounds like the flogging of a dead beast rite now...)
Ghostbusters 3 (ok... when none of ur original cast can even physically do the film and refuse to have n e thing to do with it... u know u have crap)
gladiator 2 (umm... how can u make a sequel to a movie where both the lead character and the main villian die... umm... continuity issue n e one??)
he man and the masters of the universe (ok as cool as john woo is... i cant watch this movie with out bam's he man song and video coming up...)
Hulk 2 (ok... stop it now.. the first was just... and now another... ugh)
Innocence: Ghost in the Shell (again... another hollywood live action remake fucking up a classic genious anime... stop it already... get outa anime hollywood)
Neon Genesis Evangelion (live action remake... how many times do i have to say this... GET THE FUCK OUTA ANIME!!!)
Predator 3 (staring: the rock... nuff said...)
lol ok these ones i gotta bold out... sylvester stallone has signed contracts to do the following movies: rambo IV and rocky VI... can hollywood get n e worse??
Terminator 4 (ok... script writing has begone and casting starting... but terminator w/out Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhnold... gonna blow...)
fast and furious 3 (ok... wut now... triply faster and triplyduper furiouser... come on... quite it NOW!!!!)
Godfather Part VI (ya... how the fuck can u add onto that??? luk at this http://filmforce.ign.com/moremovies/objects/492301.html)
The Ring 2 (dammit... it just wont be scary...)
THE SIMPSONS (ok 3 movies... wut the hell... way to ruin the series)

u guys should go here and read up on the coming films... maybe u will see something u love or hate... its where i found all these: http://filmforce.ign.com/moremovies/

wut do u think of my choices???

ok time to rant... again...

Fri, 14 May 2004 13:22:54 GMT

ok its time for a rant... i love doing these... ok the topic... I FUCKING HATE FAIR WEATHER FANS... the flames... wut fucking bullshit... hardly n e of the people in this town or n e where nearby gave a shit about them until they started to win... in fact most of these same people that are currently "hardcore flames fanatics" are teh same people that thought it was a good idea a few years ago to get rid of the team and use their money to sponsor a world class laccross team... does ne one else see some hypocracy in this?? WELL??

my god it pisses me off... there is such hypocracy in this world... and the flames are just one of the forefronts of them... i mean u wanna see true fanatics look at the chicago cubs... they have not one the series since 1909... yet all of their fans dispite the extreme loosing... are still even more devoted to their team than these new flames "fanatics" are... i mean that is devotion that i can respect... they stand behind their team no matter what happens... the flames on the other hand... 10 to 1 the second they loose this season... everyone will be back to the way they used to be... wishing they had nothing to do with a team of losers... u know if a parent did this sort of thing to their kid (only loving them when they are winning) everyone would see a problem with it... but when it comes to a team of shitty ass hockey players that costs the city multiple millions of dollars a year to run and almost never makes a profit let alone breaks even its all good....

dammit i hate u fair weather fans.... blow me....

dance to the tamborine...

Thu, 06 May 2004 01:46:07 GMT

it has been such a shitty day today...

Hey mr. tamborine man play a song for me... im not sleepy and there is no place im going to...

i need a tamborine man... rite now i need a song...

OH HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN!!!!

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 19:59:32 GMT

GODDAMNIT!!!! can u beleive this shit... stephan dorff one of the koolest mother fukers in the world did a music video with britney spears... OH HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN... i saw it today and it was embarrasing... i saw deken frost my favorite movie badguy ever and one of the coolest actors in the world also one of my favorite stoop to do a videowith that hosebag... my god it is so disapointing to see him droop to do that... dammit stephen whY??!! my only theory that does not make stephen dorff out to be a sellout... is that he wanted to check out britney naked... cause she does a bath scene and he gets to hold her... i pray to god that that is the only reason he did it... cause then i could forgive him... i mean he got to check out the goods of britney... please stephen tell me that this is why u did it... cause if not... then i am uterly disapointed... come on deken...

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 06:06:42 GMT

sup mother fuckers... mwahahahahaha i got my laptop back... that means many more frequent posts... not like n e one reads this shit n e ways... i met 2 kreepy as shit girls the other day... they where like 11... but knew so many intricate details about my life... past relationships... current stuff im doing... and lots more... they scare me... oh well... then they told me to ask out their sister but wouldnt tell me who their sister was... then the other one told me that apparently i claimed that she had, had a baby during her life... and i have no clue what the hellshe was talking about... i am scared... and what the hellz goin on here... oh well... still creepy...

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 22:30:04 GMT

Причините
боль год назад... холодной ночи октября ...
сломанный автомобиль на грунтовой дороге ...
человек... девочка... безумие ... причиняют боль... и теням...
мой бог, тени...

Furcht
er schreit und schreit und hämmert seinen Kopf
gegen die Wand bis zum Klagegespenst firetrucks
Schritte durch seine Vision

Schmerz, Schmerz ist alles, dass er
und Hass will, ja hassen

wir werden nie vergessen und nie vergessen und nie

verzeihen und uns nie jemals
fürchten Furcht ist für den Feind
Furcht und Kugeln

Notte
il mio kitten cammina sui piedi del velluto e non fa suono affatto;
e nella porta si siede nightly per guardare la caduta di nerezza penso
che ami la signora, notte
e ritiene analogo di lei di chi passi sono ancora come suo,
di chi tocco delicatamente quanto pelliccia

Wij zijn allen die allen zingen die crap van de wereld dansen...

there is something under the sun...

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 08:33:14 GMT

the past is the most painful subject of my life... when others around me speak of reminicing they only remember the "goot ol times"... zac speaks of grade 6 like the mecha of good times... arty relives the "fun stuff" of grade 3 and playing tag all day... steve looks back on grade 8 with glee as it is the time when his life changed extremely and he began to realize who he really is... june... well she doesnt really speak of the past... jennie relives her past in quebec with utter happiness... suzie wishes to be back "home"... shayna is one of the few that only looks towards the future... who else is there in my life?? so many people that talk to me... i just dont listen to them though... on the outside i show everyone around me nothing of what i really feel... everytime i meet someone from my past who tries to reminice only causes me pain... i remember the past that cost me so much time... i remember choices i made out of anger that i did nothign but regret afterward... there are so many people that i have so many things that i would like to say and attone for... if i could just "run into" a few people and get them to listen to me for more than 10 seconds... and i mean really listen... not just wait for their turn to talk... i would apologize... and try to get them to forgive me for things that i did... all of which where ieither done out of fear... or for trying to not repeat mistakes of the past... but instead i just caused a greater one...

what does this poem say to u?

Creatures kissing in the rain
shapeless in the dark again
in the hanging garden
please dont speak
in the hanging garden
no one sleeps

catching the haloes on the moon
gives my hands the shapes of angels
in th eheat of the night
the animals scream
in hte heat of the night
walking into a dream...

fall fall fall fall
into the walls
jump jump out of time
fall fall fall fall
out of the sky
cover my face as the animals cry

creatures kissing in the rain
shapeless in the dark again
in a hanging garden
change the past
in a hanging garden
wearing furs
and masks

fall fall fall
into the walls
jump jump out of time
fall fall fall
out of the sky
cover my face as the animals die
in the hanging garden...

robert smith

think about it... what does it say to u?? to me it makes me remember the past... and wish that i could change it... argghh... it seems like these days my mind has become nothing more than a constant stream of words that seem to form an elegy of despair and irony... i cannot think of a single choice in a relationship that i do not regret now... why is it that i dont see that the greatest things in my life are the greatest things in my life until i fuck up and drop them or cause a disaster... i always make the wrong choices and whats worse is i always make these mistakes because i let my past cloud my judgement... i see a point in my relationships that mirrors another one that weant sour... so i freak out and make a stupid decision or a retarded jump to someone else... all of this happens to me because i cannot for some reason realize that each relationship is a different person that will not freak out and fuck me over.... the worst is that i can easily say that all of this springs from -----... what she did to me fucked everything up... damn her... yet i love her... isnt that sad?? after all these years i hate her yet part of me cannot give up on her... what part of our psyche causes us to always love those that we once loved... why isnt love fleeting?? no matter how much i hate her part of me still screams for her... ARRGGHH!!!!
Ванесса
i feel the need to find another poem... what screams through your heart when u read this??
я люблю Вас
Here are the young men,
a weight on their shoulders
here are the young men
well where have they been?
we knocked on all the doors
of hell's darker chambers
pushed to the limits
we dragged ourselves in
watched fromt he wings as
we never had seen
portrayal of the traumas adn degeneration
the sorrows we suffered
and never were freed
where have they been?
я сожалею
weary inside, now our hearts
lost forever
can't replace the fear
or the thrill of the chase
these rituals showed up the door
for our wanderings
opened and shut, then slammed
in our face
where have they been??
это уоснт ваша ошибка
Joy Division
Вы можете когда-либо прощать мне?
does this mean that i will have to slam the doors shut on my past?? not just plagueing me are my relationships... the things i did... ugh... i have not been a very good freind... zac has needed me many times and i fell through almost with extreme reliability... sarah has asked for my help so many times and the only thing i have done is sit there... i was lucky with laus... and tori... i was able to help them because their sadness mirrored that which has plagued me... i was always able to find a way out for them... yet i see none for myself... except the obvious... which will never happen... for she will not forgive me... what about toni... what the fuck good did i ever to for her?? i tried to help but i was inept at the aid that she truly need... i cant help them... when i cannot even help myself... my god... i think that this is the darkest i have ever felt... my god... i wish i could be like others and just be apathetic about my past... or even be able to see the good points of it all... but the thing here is... im not depressed by n e stretch... i can function normal... i can feel good... but it just i dont care... it has been far to long since n e one has really got me to give a rats ass... there was one who did... but i fucked that up... dammit... i miss u --------... u where... no are... amazing... but everything went to hell when i saw our relationship turn around a bend... and i did a typical thing... i did waht i have always done... made a stupid decision because i thought that it would turn into what my one with ----- did... i cant get past that... and look at ----- i could have had something great with her... but because i listened to what arty and laus said... i fucked that up... goddamn... i wish i could just give a damn about things these days... i just dont care... there is only one thing that i really care about...
я буду всегда любить Вас...
hmmm... that feels better... hmm...
для Вас - тот...
ill end though with my favorite poem... by J. O'Barr...
Seven Blackbirds in a Tree, count them and see what they be,
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for a girl, four for a boy,
five for silver, six for gold,
seven for a secret thats never been told....
Your all going to Die...

FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 07:51:53 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THIS SHIT... WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE FOLLOWING PICTURE???

WHY SHOULD I CARE ABOUT THE POOR STARVING POEPLE IN HAITI THAT ARE BEING MURDERED BY DEATHS SQUARDS AND ARE LEFT GOVERNMENTLESS... WHY SHOULD I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE CLUSTER BOMBS BEING DROPPED ON IRAQ DAILEY... WHY SHOULD I GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THE EXTREMEE POVERTY IN AMERICA... WHY SHOULD I GIVE A FICKING SHIT ABOUT THIS WHEN OH MY GOD!!! THERES A MOVIE THAT MAY DEPICT JESUS AND MAKE JEWS THAT LIVED OVER 2000 FUCKING YEARS AGO LOOK MEAN... HOLD THE FUCKING PRESSES GUYS... ANCEINT JEWS MITA MADE A FUCKING MISTAKE SO LETS TALK ABOUT THAT NON STOP WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE DIENG HORRIBLE DEATHS AND LIVING ON THE STREATS...

GOD THIS IS A FUCKED UP WORLD...

shit

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 01:33:29 GMT

it has been a shitty day, in a shitty week, in a shitty month in a shitty 6 months... all is shitty... so i need to rant i need to scream... but people in my house are way to bitchy to accept that so i resort to my only excape.... INTERNET SCREAM!!!!
scream along if u are having a shitty time!!!
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cont in replys....

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 22:40:04 GMT

man listen to this:
Marilyn Manson has revealed that he has a secret desire to become a schoolteacher. "Nobody in school wants to learn anything and everybody hates school because it’s boring," says the God Of Fuck. "My dream is to become a teacher because I think I could encourage kids to learn and become as thirsty for knowledge as I am."

man seriously if that fucker had been my teacher maybe i wouldnt skip as much as i do!!

all hail the god of fuck:

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 22:10:29 GMT

do germans have an accent while speaking japanese?? i was sitin here watching this anime (R.O.D.) and this one character is german... and has a thick accent in the english language mode... so i wonder to myself... what does it sound like when a person with a thick german accent speaks japanesse... would the accent sound the same to the japanese as it does to us?? i know this is a retarded question... so i go to the japanese language mode and listen... and he sounds no different than the other japanese people... so is the accent something u can only tell when u understand the language?? but that doesnt make sense... cause even people who dont speak english can tell that there are different accents of it... so why cant i tell the japanese differnce??? ugh now i have a headache... its like my brain is having a baby... and evertime i think of that stupid question it makes the brain baby kick... ugh... well nite nite....

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 19:58:17 GMT

i need new memories... all mine are sad and depressing... i dunno wtf happend to me this christmas... but something inside of me snapped... all of a sudden it is like every single bad memorie i have has come flooding back to me... and has hit me all at once... i am suddenly struck with more remorse about some choices i have made now many months and even years after them i now all at one time feel more remorse about them than i ever had... :(... the only thing that has made me smile in the last week is watching nardwar... that is so sad... i dotn understand it... i have the option of being in a new relationshiop but for some reason i dont know if i want to... then there is kendra... OMG... i am so depressed and i dont even know why... ugg...

i just want to smile... usually i can do this so easily... but rite now i feel like funking shit...

Bukanow

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 05:24:24 GMT

thats rite... junes likes the word bukanow!!! she says its not a word but we both know it is...

admiral: Hey johnson why the hell are the lights out??
johnson: uhh... sir.... the generater... it kinda... fell over...
admiral: WHY THE FUNK DOES NOTHING WORK IN THIS DAMN BUILDING!!!
johnson: umm sire... its cause the generater fell over...
admiral: Are these dead body's in my halls....
johnson: umm sire... maybe... how can we tell when we cant even get the generators working....
admiral: stevenson why didnt u do n e thing to stop it...
stevenson: sire i have learned that in situations with 2 naked men u do not approach the problem...
admiral: What the fuck... has somebody infultrated our base...
johnson: no not at all sir...
admiral: then wut are these dead bodies...
johnson: umm sir... we are not at this point certain if they are really dead...
admiral: how can u not know??
johnson: well... the generater fell over...
admiral: And ur telling me there no one infultrating our base...
johnson: well sir... its about the generaters... they kinda--
admiral: JOHNSON SHUT UP BEFORE I PUT MY FIST THROUGH UR FACE!!!!

seanbaby rules

Sat, 06 Dec 2003 04:35:33 GMT

ok... read these video game reveiws... basically this guy takes reviews of old games and updates tehm... here is the best one... the review is about a game based on those ugly ass troll dolls that remind me of mary kate and ashley as baby's...

SUPER TROLL ISLAND:
in this game, you are a hideous troll doll who must color black and white backrounds. Maybe im just being to much of an art snob, but i htought that the concept of coloring things was already a little played out by my DUKES OF HAZARD activity book, and while the first reviewers achnowledged that the trolls' speed is dangerous, that hardly does justice to how out of control these creepy little bastards are. Trying to finish coloring a level is like ATTATCHING A PAINT BUCKET AND A JET ENGINE TO AN UGLY BABY AND THROWING IT INTO AN ELEVATOR!!!

Original review: "Whoa! Wait a minute. This is an interesting concept (turning black ad white lands into color), but hte incredibly fast speed at which u travel leads u to many unintenional errors--like running into enemies"
SCORE: 7.0

Updated reveiew: The old reviewers handed out some seemingly high scores to, well, what boils down to a game about troll dolls and coloring. Looking back now its obvious that the reviewers where just being sarcastic and postmodern. Way to go guys--you really fooled us!! but now, the fun's over. Im goin to take a no-nonense apprach to this and give it a score of TROLL RIDING A HOT DOG!!!!

SCORE: TROLL RIDING A HOT DOG

SHIZTY

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 06:28:43 GMT

well... i see that some people noticed my msn name today... and all i gotta say is WHY WONT PEOPLE GO THE FUNK AWAY!!!! MY GOD!!!! i have the people i wanna talk to... but people are adding and msging me by like 10 new people a day... and i found out why... aparently i have been credited on the game site kings of chaos as a CO CREATOR... i have no funking relation to them at all... never even heard of them... but because of that i have been added to everyone that plays that games list... i had this morning over 300 contacts... i was able to prune taht dow to about 25 that i know and still they keep ading me... and on top of that...t hese last 2 days have been the WORST FUCKING EXPERIANCE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!

lets see... on monday i took my car into the dealership to get a checkup... they tell me everythings good and its in excelent condition.... so im like sweet ass... i take it on the road yesterday... and guesse wut fucking happens.... the radiator tank... EXPLODES... somehow too much pressure built up and the radiator tank holding all my cooling fluid literally fuckin exploded... the side was trashed and this coolant whent all over the engine... because it was all spread out it began to boil and burn onto the engine... thats rite... burn... in the matter of about 2 seconds this happens and all of a sudden all i can see is black smoke and steam and my car i wickedly pull onto the side and almost got sideswipped... i almost fuckign died cause i could not see n e thing... i turn off the car... and call my mom... seh comes and picks me up and she insists i go to school... its a good thing i did... i go and get to my first class... and it dones on me....

MY FUCKING FINAL IS TODAY!!!!! i had not prepared and i forgot all about it... i bluff my way through it an i think i may pass but no better... then on top of taht... my teach in the other class desides to assing this huge ass assingment... and i got another one i gotta do tonite on top of it... all is due monday... oh and wut else u may ask?? i couldnt get to my shift at safeway... which caused mr. assfuck jim to bitch at me over the phone for almost a half an hour... telling me im irrestponsible and shit... i almost fucking screamed "SHUT THE FUCK UP ITS NOT LIKE I FUCKING PLANNED THIS AND I CANT GET FUCKING HOME UNTIL LIKE 9:30 CAUSE THATS WHEN MY DAD CAN COME GET ME!!!!!!!!"... my god... oh but lets add more... cause thats rite theres more...

tomorrow i wanted to go into calgary and go unicorn hunting with june (long story dont ask)but i cant now for 2 reasons... i have a shift... a impromtue test... and a few hours of work to do on a group assignment... ITS FUCKING INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG... i cant take this shit n e more... i need a nite out on the town... i need to go to calgary and get drunk... and i need a nite of no responsibilitys... hopefully saturday nite i can make this happen... shayna hinted she mite want to hang out in calgary... mite be just wut i need... but i still wanna go into calgary to go unicorn hunting... i will find time for it all... cause i cant take this shit no more... i feel like im gonna expload... well at least i can rant here... thank god...

ugg this saturday better make me so happy...

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 18:58:19 GMT

ok... i feel like chatiing so this is not really a journal... its more of a chat thing... quickly... lets talk... hey some weather we are having eh?

UBER MON FUERER!!!!

Wed, 19 Nov 2003 02:45:40 GMT

holy fuck dog... the last few days have kicked so much ass...

on sunday nite... i had... what i can only describe as... the most... honest... conversation i have ever had in my life... with this chick i met... shayna... shes pretty fuckin swank... and awesome to hang with... there is something very disarming about her... so much so that we talked all the fucking nite... we started at 3 and ended at like 2:30 in the morning... it was amazing... i have never connected so fast with some one upon first meeting her... in what was liek teh third nite of doin stuff with her.... i told her some shit that i still havnt told people i have known for years... it was amazing... that nite made my fucking week...

then monday we go to vancouver... me and june hung around vancouver for a whole day and it was way to much fun... although it rained and i was cold but thats ok i feel fine now... man... i loved the trip...

the unicorns... as gay as their name sounds... they actually kicked serious ass... n e band that can do a spontaneous live cover of a 50 cent song in rock form and make it sound cool... deserves major fucking respect...

and the lead singer of METRIC... OMFG... she is the fucking hottest chick i have ever seen... and the way she dances is amazing... i miss her already... lol...

and although they took for ever to get on stage... well maybe the lead singer needed a thousand brown M and M's in a brandy glass or he wouldnt go on... hot hot heat kicked ass... and they played OH GOD DAMMIT!!! my fav song by them... it was so fucking amazing... and i got a neat little snack mix on the plane...

all in all... life kicked ass latly... finally :D...

blarg...

Fri, 14 Nov 2003 03:30:50 GMT

why is it that every relationship i am in screws up somehow?? especially a relationship with someone i have had feelings for, for a very long time... i always somehow pull off messing up what could be a great thing... in all of my relatiionships the ending blow has only been deliverd by me twice... the first time was... complicated... and i will not go into it cause very few people know the whole story and it still kinda hurts to even mention it... the second... i ended because i wanted to be with someone else... but in all of them... i screwed everything up... somehow i am sure i am the cause of each one... and that sure does feel like shit... oh well... i am used to this i guesse... or at least i should be... i always fuck up i guesse... although i am never given reasons... oh well... what can i do i guesse... shrug it off and move on... move on from somehting i thoguht was great...

god i need that trip to vancouver... now more than ever... :(...